Two failed back surgeries

Where do I start? I already have had depression and anxiety before my surgeries and now that the second back surgery (fusion) has failed I am no longer able to think that this will ever get better and I will be in this pain for the rest of my life (I’m 36) so now my depression and anxiety has gone way out of control and I don’t know what to do. I’ve had to quit my job and I cannot do anything I used to be able to do. I find myself posting on social medina because I have no friends and really no one to talk to so this is why I am here